a new way to live

"just for today i will try to live through this day only, and not tackle all my problems at once. i can do something for 12 hrs that would appall me if i felt that i had to keep it up for a lifetime."

For I, the LORD, do not change; therefore you, O sons of Jacob, are not consumed.
Malachi 3.6

living with me

this past week has been one of the hardest in my life. its put me on my face realizing how much I need help and healing in the deep dark recesses of Amber. I need time to work on myself. and the Lord is giving that to me. I won't go into details here...but, it's over. For now at least. My prayer is that in the Lord's timing we'll be ready. Or that He'll heal my broken heart...

and I don't want to trust Him. I'm just being honest. but I know I have to. He's the only one that will never walk away...

even more music

you've probably heard this before, I'm pretty sure it's pretty old...but doing my Bible study today brought this to mind, so...

He Is
Aaron Jeoffrey

In Genesis, He's the breath of Life 
In Exodus, the passover Lamb 
In Leviticus, He's our high priest 
Numbers, the fire by night 
Deuteronomy, He's Moses' voice 
In Joshua, He is salvation's choice 
Judges, Law giver 
In Ruth, the kinsman redeemer 
First and Second Samuel, our trusted prophet 
In Kings and Chronicles, He's sovereign 
Ezra, true and faithful scribe 
Nehemiah, He's the rebuilder of broken walls and lives 
In Esther, He's Mordecai's courage 
In Job, the timeless redeemer 
In Psalms, He is our morning song 
In Proverbs, wisdom's cry 
Ecclesiastes, the time and season 
In the Song of Solomon, He is the lover's dream 
He is, He is, He is 

In Isaiah, He's Prince of Peace 
Jeremiah, the weeping prophet 
In Lamentations, the cry for Israel 
Ezekiel, He's the call from sin 
In Daniel, the stranger in the fire 
In Hosea, He is forever faithful 
In Joel, He's the Spirits power 
In Amos, the arms that carry us 
In Obadiah, He's the Lord our Savior 
In Jonah, He's the great missionary 
In Micah, the promise of peace 
In Nahum, He is our strength and our shield 
In Habakkuk and Zephaniah, He's pleading for revival 
In Haggai, He restores a lost heritage 
In Zechariah, our fountain 
In Malachi, He is the son of righteousness rising with healing in His wings 
He is, He is, He is 

In Matthew, Mark, Luke and John, He is God, Man, Messiah 
In the book of Acts, He is fire from heaven 
In Romans, He's the grace of God 
In Corinthians, the power of love 
In Galatians, He is freedom from the curse of sin 
Ephesians, our glorious treasure 
Philippians, the servants heart 
In Colossians, He's the Godhead trinity 
Thessalonians, our coming King 
In Timothy, Titus, Philemon He's our mediator and our faithful Pastor 
In Hebrews, the everlasting covenant 
In James, the one who heals the sick. 
In First and Second Peter, he is our Shepherd 
In John and in Jude, He is the lover coming for His bride 
In the Revelation, He is King of Kings and the Lord of Lords 
He is, He is, He is 

The prince of peace 
The Son of man 
The Lamb of God 
The great I am 
He's the alpha and omega 
Our God and our Savior 
He is Jesus Christ Lord and when time is no more 
He is, He is

leave the scar

Heal the Wound
by PoG

I used to wish that I could rewrite history
I used to dream that each mistake could be erased
Then I could just pretend
I never knew me back then

I used to pray that You would take this shame away
Hide all the evidence of who I've been
But it's the memory of
The place You brought me from
That keeps me on my knees
And even though I'm free

Heal the wound but leave the scar
A reminder of how merciful You are
I am broken, torn apart
Take the pieces of this heart
And heal the wound but leave the scar

I have not lived a life that boasts of anything
I don't take pride in what I bring
But I'll build an altar with
The rubble that You've found me in
And every stone will sing
Of what You can redeem

Heal the wound but leave the scar
A reminder of how merciful You are
I am broken, torn apart
Take the pieces of this heart
And heal the wound but leave the scar

Don't let me forget
Everything You've done for me
Don't let me forget
The beauty in the suffering

Heal the wound but leave the scar
A reminder of how merciful You are
I am broken, torn apart
Take the pieces of this heart
And heal the wound but leave the scar

He fails us NOT

Fail Us Not
1000 Generations

Failure doesn't phase you.
Worry doesn't win.
Lost doesn't leave you afraid to start again.
Our sin doesn't shock you.
Our shame doesn't shame you at all.
Mistakes do not move you.
Terror doesn't tame.
Death doesn't doom you to life in the grave.
Our suffering doesn't scare you.
Our secrets won't surprise you at all.
At all.

There is nothing above you.
There is nothing beyond you.
There is nothing that you can't do.
Whatever will come, we'll rise above.
You fail us not, You fail us not.
No matter the war, our hope is secure.
You fail us not, You fail us not.
You fail us not.

Hatred doesn't hide you.
Evil doesn't ail.
Despair can't disguise you and tell you that you fail.
Our doubt doesn't daunt you.
Our darkness won't defeat you at all.
At all.

There is nothing above you.
There is nothing beyond you.
There is nothing that you can't do.
Whatever will come, we'll rise above.
You fail us not, You fail us not.
No matter the war, our hope is secure.
You fail us not, You fail us not.
Whatever will come, we'll rise above.
You fail us not, You fail us not.
No, You fail us not.
You fail us not.