Wednesday, December 24, 2008

the things I can't do...

I had a long-needed conversation with two of my girls tonight. And it left me thinking...and realizing how "adrift" I feel.

I can't be Southern Baptist anymore. It's not where I am.
I can't live up to theirrules anymore. Or mine for that matter. I'm tired!
I can't listen to only Christian music.
I can't go to the perfect church and be a a perfect leader in a perfect ministry.
I can't be afraid of the past. Or the future.
I can't love only those who are easy to love, if that were the way it worked, who would love me?

I'm not a porcelain teacup...

All I know I can do is love Jesus so much it hurts. And walk in His grace and freedom. And pray that when I drift in to port I'll be right where He wants me.

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