fear, faith and personal failure

I've never really thought of myself as someone who's afraid.
Of anything really.
Not afraid to travel the world, alone.
Not afraid to say what I think, which has gotten me in trouble more than once.
Not afraid to eat crazy things, take bush rat for example.

But, I am.
I'm afraid my life won't turn out the way I've planned.
That I won't make the impact I want to make on the world.
That I'll fail at whatever is next.
Or, that the Lord will have something different in mind.

I'm learning to trust, learning to pray in a new way.
Learning to look to Him, wait on Him like I never have before.

Out of the depths I cry to you, O Lord!
O Lord, hear my voice!
Let your ears be attentive
to the voice of my pleas for mercy!

If you, O Lord, should mark iniquities,
O Lord, who could stand?
But with you there is forgiveness,
that you may be feared.

I wait for the Lord, my soul waits,
and in his word I hope;
my soul waits for the Lord
more than watchmen for the morning
more than watchmen for the morning.

O Israel, hope in the Lord!
For with the Lord there is steadfast love,
and with him is plentiful redemption.
And he will redeem Israel
from all his iniquities.
Psalm 130